Tomorrow I'm going to be reading a piece I wrote about Zac's during the Linden Church zoom service.
Although I've been sitting in on the zoom meetings for a few months it's the first time I'll have been actually involved so it's quite a big thing for me. Jared who's speaking asked me to read my piece to tie in with what he's saying and I was honoured and delighted to say yes.
But. There is history.
I went to Linden Church for many years. I worked as Administrator there for a number of years. But then I wrote to the leadership team saying I was taking time out. They read that as me leaving, so I did.
The reason I gave in my letter was that I wanted to concentrate on Zac's but the truth was that each Sunday morning I was looking for an excuse not to go. Not a healthy place to be, but I've enjoyed going to the zoom meetings for a number of reasons. If it gets boring I can go on FaceBook or just leave. At the end I don't have to stay and chat I can just leave. Are you starting to get the picture?
Before the funeral last week I was talking to someone who said how much they'd missed being with people since lockdown; I said it had made me realise that I wasn't awfully keen on people in general.
It was never the people as such that drove me away from Linden. One or two people maybe but on the whole they're very lovely people. It's not them, it's me.
So, anyway, that's why tomorrow is going to be quite a big day for me. Not exactly back in the fold but a step closer maybe.