Wednesday, July 19, 2017

I had a panic attack

panic attack
Probably not what would be medically defined as a panic attack but it was by my standards.

I went cold and faint, my tummy dropped to my feet and my brain filled with storm clouds. The worst symptoms eased off gradually but the storm raged all day. 

What was worse is that it's the first one I've had for ages, years even. My pills keep my anxiety under control most of the time so I'd almost forgotten what it was like. Even now writing about it - and it happened two days ago - I begin to feel fretful. I can't go back there. I won't go back there.

P.S. Having googled panic attack I see that my attack was fairly typical, which is sort of a relief: it makes me feel less of a fraud.


Leslie: said...

So sorry about that, Liz! Do you know what triggered it? I can empathize because twice my ex said things to me that cut me to the quick and I ended up having some sort of anxiety-induced heart attacks. My doctor later assured me that this type of attack does not leave your heart damaged, but it surely did damage the relationship - as you know.

Take planning on coming over next year to go to Ireland with Jane and hopefully tour the Pembrokeshire coast. So maybe we can meet up and do something nice together - like one of those gardens you visit or that island off Tenby. So stay tuned! Jane is coming here in a couple of weeks so we'll have some fun sightseeing in my neighbourhood!

Anne in Oxfordshire said...

I totally understand I had panic attacks for lomg tone .. not on med any more. You will not go back .. I wonder what triggered it off. I had severe depression last year and that was hell. I do get wobbles now . But apparently all down to my life circumstances. . Hope you are feeling better now. Thinking of you . Xx

Liz Hinds said...

Pembrokeshire is so beautiful, Leslie! Have a wonderful time with Jane.

Yes, I am, thank you, Anne. Like you mostly just wobbles.

SmitoniusAndSonata said...

Oh , I am sorry . It sounds horrible and I hope you're feeling a lot better this evening .
One of those excellent icecreams might speed up recovery .