Thursday, September 27, 2012

And then there was the low

Tuesday morning I drooped.

My these days usually cheerful mood - ecstatically cheerful recently - disappeared and was replaced by that once familiar knotted stomach. The black cloud was so real, its gloomy pressure tangible, that apathy encased me like a barrier of thorns.

I'd almost forgotten what it was like. An old enemy that once held sway over my life, shredding it to miserable little pieces. I am so glad I'm not in that place any more.

Tuesday's decline was temporary; by late evening it had passed.  But its memory and the reminder of how I used to be frightened me. I don't want to go there again.

I need to bounce that's what it is! The weather - and my poorliness - has stopped me getting out there and bouncing; I must bounce. I need to bounce! Let there be bouncing. (And maybe chocolate.)


nick said...

Oh, that must have been a nasty reminder. I hope you get your bounce back in very large quantities.

James Higham said...

Liz, you're a Christian I believe. Therein lies all the succour needed through the bad times. They aren't platitutdes - they work.

CalumCarr said...

Hi Liz

You said to me

"When the impossibility of it all engulfs me I think of Jesus the man on earth and cling on to that."

He's here now for you.

He's here always for you.

Reach out and grasp his hand.

Liz said...

Oh I have, nick!

Calum, good to hear from you!

SmitoniusAndSonata said...

You've had a very busy few months ! You'll be like Tigger again in no time .

Liz said...

I am, sonata.