Speaking in prison yesterday morning. I wasn't supposed to be but neither of the two people I'd hoped would be speaking were available so they were stuck with me.
I usually get very stressed beforehand but this time I felt calm and relaxed. I mentioned this to our musician while we were waiting to go into prison adding, 'Which probably means I've forgotten something or I don't know what I'm doing.'
It turned out to be the latter. It wasn't that I did anything wrong exactly but I lost confidence and began to stutter and stumble. It wasn't horrendous but I came away feeling 'could have done better.' Nobody said anything critical and one or two of the men thanked me and appreciated my talk but you know how it is: we're always our own worst critics.
The theme was friends so I had this bright idea that we'd end on a jolly note by singing 'You've got a friend in me' from Toy Story. I printed off the words so we could all join in and we were off.
'You've got a friend in me (sung loudly and heartily)
you've got a friend in me
you've got a friend in me!'
To be fair it's quite a difficult song to sing as it doesn't have a repetitive rhythm and you have to either squash or stretch the words to make them fit - and you have to know when to do which. We won't sing it again but the men took it in the spirit it was meant and left feeling happy (I hope) and, if they're like me, will be singing the first two lines until Thursday at least.